buhhh

Date tomorrow. Do not want. Blaming Alex Mckinlay for everything wrong in my life from this point forward. Scared, nervous, clueless… feeling pretty anti-change at the mo. So what it’s dysfunctional! It’s my dysfunctional! Predictable, angsty, depressing but god, sometimes I feel so happy I could burst. But man, nothing’s changed in 9 months, and though I once thought I’d wait forever, I think I deserve someone that will at least text or call me back. Not sure that waiting forever for someone else’s decision is a good idea, not anymore.

(Please don’t hate me though, I still care.)