yayyyyy

I am so glad that things are looking up for people, most people. I want nothing but the best for these people. At the same time, I look at my situation in comparison and wish that things were they used to be. I want to really really like someone and have them really really like me back. You know. The lovely stage where both people make an effort and every single time the other suggests or says something lovely you melt a little inside. I just want to be appreciated damnit, and not have to play second, third, fourth best to other people and other habits. I don’t want to be a fucking habit, I want to be the one that makes your heart beat that little bit faster, I want to make you happier than anything else in the world. And I’m so glad that some of my friends are breaking away from just settling and are (hopefully) going into something exciting and delightful. God fucking knows they deserve it, no one should have to feel that they are at all lacking.