January 2010
3 posts
yayyyyy
I am so glad that things are looking up for people, most people. I want nothing but the best for these people. At the same time, I look at my situation in comparison and wish that things were they used to be. I want to really really like someone and have them really really like me back. You know. The lovely stage where both people make an effort and every single time the other suggests or says...
life
This is my motherfucking life. What the fuck am I doing. What happened to the Kat that used to seek out the beautiful things in everything, and everything was exciting, everything was a joy. Now I’m this angry, resentful, bitter drug abuser. Why am I so scared and ashamed that my friend is helping me pull some strings at Syn. Why do I care so so so so SO much about you. Why am I putting off...