December 2009
6 posts
a little bit sad
I want friends to stop deciding they’re attracted to me. I’m not over it yet so don’t even bother, and keep your words to yourselves because I’m not interested. I have crushes on few people, and so far only one of them has lasted, and gotten into both my heart and pants. I’m not that easy, ok. And it’s offensive when you think you have a shot, when you know how...
dreamboat
I was called that today. I laughed and said thank you in a sarcastic way, because that way I could seem modest if it was a compliment and tough if it was an insult, but really I had no idea what it meant. Goofy, maybe? Lost? Spacey? So I just looked it up, and this is what I found:
–noun Slang.
1. a highly attractive or desirable person. 2.
anything considered as highly desirable of its...
teehee
Someone likes me. In that way. And he’s kinda sweet and nice. And I shouldn’t enjoy the attention but hell I’m not getting that kind of love from anywhere else.
buh
I feel like an idiot again. Maybe next time you decide to grace me with your loveliness I’ll just ignore you so you go away forever and stop hurting me afterwards. Or maybe I’ll just keep falling for it over and over, like I have, because I guess I must still love you. Or some shit like that anyway. I didn’t really sign up for this.
oh
Cuddles and kisses and snuggles and eskimo kisses. We are perfect when it’s just us.
and maybe being on drugs helps too.